The last song we sang at church yesterday was Shine Jesus Shine. It has been a long time since I've heard/sung that one! I think it had been for a lot of people. There was a different atmosphere while we were singing, as if we were all transported back in time when we did not have the burdens/stresses/heaviness we feel now.
Part of the lyrics say "shine on me". I couldn't sing those lyrics when we started the song. All I could think of is that my life is not at a place where if someone were to really look at me and follow me that they would see or be drawn to Jesus. My thoughts were along the lines of "Do not shine on me, for what will be seen is not good." As we continued on with the song, however, I was reminded that while on my own I am not good, the goodness will be seen because I am covered by the Blood of the Lamb, and it is His goodness that will shine through. After that realization my thoughts were "Go ahead! Shine away!"
I do need God's light to shine on me though, to reveal those things in me that need to be changed, and to not let me keep ignoring them. This scares me, but I know it is necessary. (God, please give me the motivation and the strength to see, to listen, and to change).
