Thursday, November 27, 2003

What a crazy last week! Major assignment and big exam over with. Friend came...and left. And the things in my head. I often don't even want to deal with them. So strange how I can be surrounded by some really great friends, but still feel so completely alone. I would say that I h.a.t.e. my love languages of quality time and physical touch, but that would mean me h.a.t.ing who I am and that's something I can't let happen. I struggle with wanting to spend time with people, but wanting to give them space that they need and want. For the most part I give them the space, but I so desperately want to spend time with them. It hurts. And it's hard to be honest on here, yet it's so much easier than talking about it.

Thursday, November 20, 2003

After much indecisiveness on here and in my own head, I decided to drop the Syria team today. At first I didn't feel anything either way about it, but as time has gone by today I have felt more and more at peace about my decision. On another note, my homework is going well again...I didn't go to Kerrobert tonight, so that gave me more time to work on it, though I was starting to fall asleep in the library. Hmmm...what else? I dunno. I get to go to Saskatoon on Sunday to pick my friend up at the airport :)
My hermitness has not been going so well. Things just keep coming up. Unexpected meetings or meetings I had forgotten about. I was planning to have had one of my major papers done yesterday, but I am not even close to that. I don't have much time today to work on it, so Friday and Saturday (mostly Saturday) will have to be major work times.

Sunday, November 16, 2003

Today in church, the pastor talked about persecution and testing our faith. I have often wondered if I wouldbe a Christian if I had grown up in another part of the world...even another part of my home province. I grew up in a Bible-belt community and I now go to school in a small town Bible College. The pastor also talked about memorizing Scripture. I had always thought this was important, but it hit me today as to why it is important. Not only is it so that we don't sin against God, but also because there may come a time when it will be illegal to be a Christian even here in Canada, a time when our Bibles will be torn from us. When we do not have the privilege of reading the Bible, let alone many different translations of it, what will we do?
Apparently our chances of going to Syria are up to 90% now. I just have to get my support letter approved, then find some money to mail them all out. Seems strange, but whatever. Anywho, one of my friends from back home is coming to visit in 1 week! I am excited for this, but because it's crunch time for assignments, this week I will be a hermit (as much as possible) for as long as it takes to get some major assignments and studying done. It will be nice to have things done early, though...not having to stress about getting them done the night before or the morning they're due.

Saturday, November 15, 2003

We started fundraising for our WAT team this morning. Selling cookies at the Craft Fair. It was a bit of a slow start, but I'm sure it'll get better as the day goes on. There's more stuff coming up that we have fundraising ideas for too...we just have to get our whole team together some time.

Friday, November 14, 2003

Apparently I misunderstood or was misinformed about the whole Syria thing. There is still an 80% chance that we will be going. Now I must write up some support letters and get those sent out so I can afford this wonderful ministry experience.
Well, I don't know too many details, but it's looking like we're not going to Syria. By the sounds of our alternative, I don't think our team will be going anywhere at all. I'm disappointed that we're not going, but I suppose it's with good reason. On another note, we just had chapel and all us Greek students got a free Greek New Testament given to us by the Canadian Bible Society. There were also 3 Hebrew Old Testaments given out to the Hebrew students. We started up Kerrobert Kids' Klub last night. I had a great time ministering to those kids. And the parents were thanking us for coming out, but not just thanking us, they seemed extremely grateful, like we took a huge burden off of them or something. There were only 2 of us from the school who went, but 2 youth members from Kerrobert came out to help us. That was such a blessing!

Wednesday, November 12, 2003

I don't think I've had an enjoyable relaxing weekend like that in a long time...if ever. Let's see...what did I do? Watched people play Desert Storm 2, watched CSI, Friends, most of Bowling for Columbine, Pirates of the Carribbean, Matrix 3 (beautiful movie!!!), did a bit of shopping...yup...that about sums it up...and I loved every minute of it...even the house alarm (makes for a good story). Though I could've handled staying in Winnipeg (which is a beautiful city with wonderful buildings architecture wise), I was also excited to come back to school. I was doing fine, with the exception of being tired, until supper tonight...I was hit with the fact that I miss the g.i.r.l.s we stayed with, even though I just met them (kind of). I h.a.t.e missing people, especially when there's good reason (like it's highly possible I will never see them again). But thanks to this wonderful computer age, all is not lost (thank you Blogger, et al.). So now I continue on and wait for the next exciting thing to happen...a friend from home is gonna come visit me at school...YAY!!!

Sunday, November 09, 2003

Ugh! What a night. I should've just stayed here the whole time. I went to watch Pirates of the Carribbean. When I got there, I waited in a nice line-up for tickets, then pop and popcorn...then the doors I have to go through to go into the movie are the dumb ones that you have to press the handle down, so I ended up spilling a large coke down my pant leg and on the carpet. The theatre was so packed, I didn't even bother trying to find a eat...I just sat in the back on the kids' booster seats. It was fine though. Anywho, so then I get back to the place where I'm staying and, though I was given a key, I was not given the alarm code. So I get back and the alarm goes off and the cops come, then they leave, then it goes off again. I felt so bad for the dog...it was hard enough on my ears. So now we sit, me and the dog, waiting for people to come home, afraid to go anywhere in case the alarm goes off again, well, I am anyways.

Friday, November 07, 2003

So I'm on the WAT list for the Syria team. I was so excited when I found out that is where we'd be going. And I got even more excited when I was told there's a possibility (small, but there) that we could join a tour in Israel while we're out that way. The thing with WAT is that we're supposed to ask our parents for permission. If they say no, it doesn't mean we don't go, necessarily, but it does make things more complicated. So last night I called home and asked my parents if I had their permission. They said no. They don't think it's safe. But they did say that I'm an and can make my own decision. And they're right...I am 24 after all. So last night I was faced with the decision of obeying God by honoring my parents or obeying God by following where He I believe He is calling me to go. While I was praying in chapel this morning, the words "leave your parents and come and follow me" ran through my head. I'm not sure if that was from God or if that was me making excuses for myself to go. For now I will continue praying for God to soften my parents' hearts in this matter and to confirm to me one way or the other aboutgoing on this missions trip.

Wednesday, November 05, 2003

Sorry I haven't updated for so long. I was away on Contact Weekend from Friday morning till Sunday night (which I was really sick for), then I was just kinda outta the habit of blogging. I've also been pretty busy trying to get a bunch of assignments done before I go away this weekend (2 more days...YAY!!!). I'm glad I got over being sick before this weekend, that would've sucked to not be able to go (or to get everyone else sick on the way there). God's been doing so much in my heart and mind over the last couple weeks...I am falling so much deeper in love with Him! Perhaps I'll write more about this some other time.