Grumble, grumble, complain, sulk, arg! God is trying to teach me something and I'm really not enjoying it at the moment, but I'm sure with time I will realize the importance of it, but for now I just want out! I'm glad it didn't take me long to realize that God wants to teach me a lesson (or2 or 3 or 4 or 5), but I wish I wasn't so stubborn and that I could learn my lesson faster than I am. And it's not making it any easier knowing that once I learn my lesson, the things I currently don't like happening will continue to happen because I don't like them happening. The only thing that will really change is my reaction and attitude to what is happening. I have to go tutor now.